11.16.2011

A little update...

Ohhhhh hello, bloggers. Man, I feel like I'm stuck under a waterfall of busyness. It's crazy. I don't even have time to sleep these days. Life definitely has a beat to run to. It's quick, might I add.
This post is going to be more of an update on me... (like it or not) ;) I'm almost done with my first semester of college and it's great. My grades are good, my friends are good, and I'm good too. I made a few commitments in the beginning of the semester that I could not follow through with and I felt bad. It's all worked out to be a blessing in disguise. Having a little bit more free time, I've been able to start writing my music again. (can I get a "thank you god!") sitting at the piano, time melts like a candle and I love every second, hour, day. I have two new songs that will be produced hopefully in December. Maybe needless to say, I'm in my lane- very happy.
My family and I are preparing to spend a few days in [my favorite city] Atlanta. It's going to be a great time. Meeting up with family and friends... We are touring CNN and colca-cola. Then we will be returning to south Florida for thanksgiving day, I will be staying till that following Monday, then it's back to the grind. In between jet-setting all around, I'm going to visit several family friends and relatives and the dentist. :/ oh, I forgot to mention- BLACK FRIDAY! I'm already preparing. It's totally game on for me. I'll be sure to post the new members of my closet that I'll be finding that day.
I would also like to congratulate a few of my cousins who just had babies. They're very sweet. I love them. Message to you new mommies: I remember when we were kiddies and now you have some! I'm excited for this new chapter in your lives and love you very much. You're little angels are such lights :)
Alright blogger family, that's all I have for you at the moment. Feel free to leave comments.

Discovering my dreams,
Amk

11.07.2011

Relax (opinion)

Mandatory chapels are an almost every day occurrence. I happen to like the late night-Monday services. I think they're cool. The campus pastor really works on trying to make it cool and relevant for the students. I can totally appreciate that. Having served in youth ministry for so long, I know what makes the individual's of this generation tick. Our pastor is young. Not college aged, but young at that. So, before services he plays sometimes unconventional music. I am not trying to step on anyones toes here by saying that it's right or wrong. That is completely up to you to decide. However, I kind of enjoy it. Obviously he doesn't play 99-jamz latest and greatest. We hear instrumentals and it really pumps up the crowd before the service starts.
Is this method always effective for instant worship? I'm not sure.
One issue I have with the whole thing is, the people that go absolutely irate when these given instrumentals are played. It's like clockwork. The track is played, and all of a sudden the holiest people recognize the song instantly. How does that work? I'm at a loss for words?! In any event, people need to keep their preferences to themselves. The same mouths that complained when the services had no substance and flavor, now complain about the song that's being played- without lyrics!! Isn't this insane?

I've never done this before... But if you have an opinion on this subject... Comment below. Im wondering what your thoughts are. Please, keep it open minded and pure hearted. We're not trying to hurt people in the process. People need to grow and if I can help someone grow then I'm a happy camper.

Discovering my dreams,
Amk

11.02.2011

Stop pushing my buttons!

As i rushed into a notoriously slow elevator in hopes of riding alone, I found myself hitting the "up" button not once, but 6 times. Why? Because i was late and i was on a mission... Or so i thought. I was rushing to a   meeting that kind of treats me like im in AA but is a very simple "personal growth" group. All i wanted was to get to where i needed to be and avoid people at all costs. Isnt that horrible? How could i not want to speak to people and be on my way to go to a personal growth meeting. (I know i felt bad when i thought about all of it...) I was so focused on that slow elevator, that when a girl smiled at me, i didnt even notice till i walked away. How crazy is that? I shouldnt have been so far in my own world that i couldnt see the smile.
My thought for today is this: Stop pressing so hard.
Meaning, dont press the button 6 times. The elevator will still come at the same speed... what ever youre expecting will  be there in time. But instead of micro managing, lets try and doing something nice for someone else. Even a smile is something.

Discovering my dream,
Amk

10.31.2011

Raining VS. reigning.

It poured today in sunny Lakeland. When I say "poured" I mean it. I had no idea that the sky had that much water inside it. It rained all day yesterday and most of the day so far... My problem with all of this is the simple fact that I'm never fully prepared for any kind of precipitation. I don't do well in snow, I've never experienced hail, and I am always soak by the rain. With out fail, I always get wet.
As I was getting ready today I purposely wore jeans I could cuff up (because I hate having the bottom of my jeans soaked), and light shirts that I knew would dry quickly... And plastic sandals. <-- mistake number 1. I looked kind of decent until my medium washed denim pants got soaked and turned dark blue and my orange short got wet and turned -wet orange. Lol. The worst part of all of this was my plastic sandals. They're cute. They're glittery. They're my favorite pair. They have no grip at all. So as I was walking and the torrential rain became as common as my left hand, I started slipping and sliding. I lost my shoe only twice before I decided to take them off and walk barefoot to my class.

Upon arrival, I had dirty feet, wet pants, soaked shirt and a bad attitude.

After reviewing my trek from one side of campus to the other, I started to think to myself, what about reigning? (yes, I meant that kind- reign not rain) for me personally, I have a BIG dream ahead of me. But how often do I complain about my "wet pants" or my "dirty feet"? What do I mean? I think that most of the time, I am bothered by things that seem like they have no sense or have no substantial role to play in my future. Why? Because I don't ever want to put in the work and experience the sometimes "negative" parts of life. I, more times than not, want things handed to me. But today it hit me, "sometimes before I can reign I might have to go through some rain."

It's nothing profound today folks, just my simple thoughts. :) I hope you enjoyed.

Discovering my dreams,
Amk

10.30.2011

Not getting any oil.

Since I've recently decided to pull back from a series of commitments- some people decided to be some what of a "squeaky wheel." you know the old saying, "the squeaky wheel gets the oil" ? Well, I have a bizarre relationship with it... Sometimes when it comes to personal advancement, I adore it. I firmly believe in the asking of questions and any further "squeaking" to be better. However, when it comes to tearing others down and "squeaking" about them- I will have no part in it. It's disgusting but tempting. I understand the fascination, you as a parson seem better. But I won't jeopardize other peoples well being to benefit myself. Fighting with people to make myself seem stronger is absurd. All I know is, your "squeaky wheel" will not be getting any of my oil. So, keep running your engine and eventually you will run out of gas.
I feel bad for these types of people who just don't seem to get the idea. The good thing about life is the lessons that are essential for living can virtually be learned at any time. Although some feel that these lessons should be learned earlier on in the game, for sake of proper execution, I am completely satisfied in the fact- that people will acquire these skills whenever.

Word to the wise- don't be the squeaky wheel unless it's to help yourself or another. If your squeaking to hurt others, your in for a tough go of the ride.

Discovering my dream,
Amk

P.s maybe the picture attached will help too.

10.27.2011

Focus

Focus. Today I'm thinking about focus. ...and business. I have to make a decision today that is going to cost money. (worst and best decisions I ever have to make involve money) when it comes to money or any other major decision I have to make- I always seek counsel. I'm the type of girl that needs to think things out a thousand times before I can grasp the concept- but when I grasp it... I'm relentless. In any case, I feel good about this choice. I know beyond any meaningless doubt, that I'll make the right one. I'm focused on the end result and it's almost like my mouth waters when i think about the dream. Getting music out, that everyone can enjoy and further, love. That's it. I can do it.

Im focused. Pray for me, and my decisions.
Discovering my dreams,
Amk

10.22.2011

Kick hard, punch strong, yell loud.

I thought to myself earlier, "I dont want to be the old woman on her death bed telling my listeners what they shouldn't do... I want to tell the things they need to do."
How horrible would it be if I failed my whole life long? Awful. Some people would just say that I had a lot of experience. Some would be real and say that I didn't do so well. But I'd like to think this will never happen. Better yet, I know this wont happen. I will not go out of this world wishing and hoping I get through or get a big break. I won't do it. What I will do, is be more than a conqueror. I won't be looking back on my life and the "could -a, should-a, would-a's" and try and turn back time. What i will do, am going and will continue to do is kick my hardest, punch my strongest and yell my loudest now. I will leave this world with the craziest reverberating voice-mine.

If its the last thing I do.
Discovering my dreams,
Amk

10.21.2011

You&apos;re still loving them...

Today, overall, was a good day. I hugged and kissed a lot of people I missed. Whenever I come back to town, I am always greeted by someone I love and miss... Today there were several. The unique part about going away for school is coming and going. Seeing who is going to say "welcome home, I missed you." and the person (there's always one..) who says "I never came back as often as you." (and you know that means, "why are you here?".
Well, I went by my old high school today and I was surprisingly greeted by the staff with warm hugs and friendly eyes. It was joyous. Who knew I would have been so welcomed. I only went to that school for 2 years. Maybe those 2 years were more impact full than I though.
I was asked by one teacher (who I completely adore) a series of interesting questions. These questions at first seem generic... But upon reflection, very meaningful. I will repeat them and my answers now. "how's life?" - (me) "good. "how's school?" - "great." "how's music?" - "even better." "how's the voice?" - "good... Still there." "hows the album? - "in progress." (and finally) "how's Jesus? - "amazing!"
See, weren't those really simple? Didn't they require simple answers? Yeah. My old teacher, I might be able to call him a friend, asked these to me from the most sincere place in his heart. I could tell. After asking, we didn't stay and weep and catch up... We smiled at each other and after a few more words, said goodbye. This by far was the best conversation I had all day. (it comes close to a quick one that I had with a 4-year old... But that kid has a real grip on my heart.) it's good to be loved. It doesn't have to be mushy... In fact I don't like that stuff. but today (or whenever you're reading this) show someone you love, that you're still loving them by caring to ask the simple things.

Discovering my dream,
Amk

10.20.2011

Enjoy it

Do you know that smell of fresh baked cookies that engulfs the whole house at Christmas time? Or what about the pumpkin spice smell at thanksgiving? Crazy good right? I'll say.
All I have to say (type-essentially) is: if you're experiencing something good today... (I'm getting good weather) enjoy it.

Smile, jump, dance, sing
Discovering my dream,
Amk

10.15.2011

Butter

Today had been interesting. Yeah... thats the word: Interesting. I wrote on FaceBook, some people say "thats just the way the cookie crumbles..." and sit by and watch thing fall apart. i say "let me back the cookie with more butter... to hold it all together." Thats exactly the person i am and want to continue to be... Im not totally sure how to continue to be this person, but im thinking the idea is "elimination." Although a rather harsh stance, if the other people dont want things to work out- then why spend time with that? Negativity is like an infection. I wont be caught with it. Thats a promise. 


Idea for today: Be the butter that holds your cookie together. At some point, the other people will have to be their own butter... you cant be everything to every one. 


Discovering my dreams,
Amk

10.13.2011

Practice makes…

How often are we bothered by the same old thing? You know... That one person who seems to bring up that same conversation every time you're together? Seems like a broken tune, right? I know. I get it. Feeling like your trapped in the hamster wheel that never stops spinning..? I understand.
There is good news. Maybe you've thought of it already and if you did, I hate to be the repeater. Lol
While I was engaged in a completely meaningless chat, I couldn't help but try and come up with a strategy to free me from my torture. But in between my mental screams I realized something. Just like I sing all day and night to practice my craft... The kid who wouldn't stop preaching at me was doing the exact same thing. Although he was completely obnoxious and relentless, he was practicing. He wants to be a preacher when he graduates. (im in bible school - these kinds of people are not rare) Just like I practice and practice my vocals and read lyric and notes to prepare for my upcoming show or service, this guy was doing just that. His rehearsal space was my ears. I was really happy when I thought all this through. I was happy because I realized that I didn't have to be fake anymore and pretend like I was enjoying his overly dramatized-simple points. I actually could. I (always) see and experience these types of people daily. Those deemed as "the annoyings" or "the headaches." But my new outlook is such, I'm not the only one in waiting, practicing, or what have you. We are all practicing something. My question is this: what are you practicing?

Discovering my dreams,
Amk

10.12.2011

Art

I feel artsy. I know I'm made for art. It's multifaceted. I am aware. I look forward to the day I will see my art.

Actually, you might not see my art, you will probably hear it.
Let's join together to see our dreams come to pass.
Everyone is invited to the future.
eXcitement Absolutely fills my bones, my heart, every thing inside.
Unity is the key, we have to hold up each others arms just like bible times.
Soon and very soon our craft will be perfected.

10.11.2011

Down in my heart

It has been quite the ironic day. Basically, a lot of things went wrong. But it was GREAT! I woke up to my roommate (whom I adore) coming in from her weekend out. That was a good thing. :) we caught up and laughed from the very start of the morning so I knew it would be a good day. Psychology was interesting, my favorite class. I was expecting to get an A+ on my paper and I got an 80. Talk about Disappointed. Still happy. Math, my very least favorite came next. I failed my pre-test which would have been the last test for my semester. Major set back. I'll be in that class for another week. Although these things would have normally completely frustrated me, I had this unexplained joy. All I could do was laugh. Strange conundrum.
Thinking about the day as a whole, I realize that I haven't laughed that hard in so long... I started thinking about the song I was taught as a baby: "I've got the joy joy joy joy down in my heart... Down in my heart to stay." That song is a really good reminder of who and what I am supposed to be. Joyful.
Today, if you're reading this, be joy and spread joy. Put a smile on and let it shine brighter than your brightest accessory. :)

Discovering my dreams,
Amk

10.07.2011

If You're Out There...

Im thinking about the future today. Its been brewing all week. Like boiling water on the stove of my heart, the steam is rising and it is beginning to spill over. Its heating everything in the way. My responsibility in this life is absolutely the task at large. Can i pin point it? ...No. Am i bursting at the seams? ...Yes!
What does it take to become the most successful person that you can be? Dedication, hard work, and perhaps immunity to fear. That, i believe, is the hardest part and i will attempt to destroy it.
Fear is a constrictor. Similar to the snake, it (almost) silently grabs ahold of you and severs you from the  very air you breathe. Why do we allow Fear to become the monster that haunts us constantly? Why do we open the door and give Fear, not only a seat but a ticket to stay? Stemming from the lack of knowledge, it happens all the time. I purpose that Fear is taken by the collar and shaken for everything He's worth. How much has he stolen from humanity? That might be unknown. But I am going to try and find out.
I figure, if i go after Fear, i might come out on top. The only way to know... trying. I will gain goodness. No matter what it takes, i am going to find it. That is a guarantee. On subject of goodness, i was reminded of the John Legend song, "If you're out there" and wanted to remind you. We are the responsible ones. The world is right in front of us and the only thing left is reaching out and grabbing it. Anyone with me? Are we going to let the world revolve past us? No.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I1215hFhJ6Y

Discovering my dream,
Amk

10.05.2011

Put your butts together.

Ever had something really special to you captured by a camera? I don't have anything special to say today or really any cool pictures to show...
My only thought is this: when your heads are too tired to put together- put your butts together ;)
This picture was taken at Calvary (my high school) at my graduation. We didn't know what to do, what cool poses to make so we put our butts together :) best thing ever. I hope this brings a smile to your faces

Discovering my dreams,
Amk

10.04.2011

Cross roads

Today one of my professors let us out of class for 30 minutes to just sit outside and reflect. The weather in Lakeland has been so beautiful for the past few days. It was such a nice break to relax and meditate in the fresh air. Outside of the class room that my class was held in is a huge fountain and several benches that look toward the Chapel building. When you walk into the chapel it has a huge dome and when you look up, you'll find that all the support beams are crosses. On the outside of the chapel's dome is a small steeple and there's a cross on there as well. That's the cross I was looking at today. (pictured) I couldn't help but stare at this cross although I've seen it a million times.
While I was sitting there watching people frantically walk by for classes they were late for, I was reminded that usually pass by beauty and never notice. It broke my heart a little. I started thinking about how many things I had to accomplish before the day was over and tomorrow's chores- they started to overwhelm me. The tranquil moment under Lakeland's slightly breezy and sunny sky almost evaporated. The next thought I had was about cross roads. I had many miniature cross roads today. I knew that I would have to pass them somehow. I saw the cross again. I knew again how I would deal with the cross roads.
No matter how big or how small your cross roads are today... I hope you remember that in every road there is a cross.

Discovering my dreams,
Amk

10.03.2011

Memory loss

If I got to see you and chat with you for a second in fort lauderdale this weekend (while I was home)- you probably asked me why I was home and I probably told you it was because my computer needed to be fixed. Well, let me begin by bragging on MacBook. When I wad in 9th grade I discovered Apple products (fully). I wanted a MacBook so bad I couldn't stand it. My parents required me to purchase it myself… which was probably the best thing they could have made me do. Not only did I buy a MacBook myself but i had seemingly acquired responsibility. After 3 months of savings it was mine! MacBook never failed me. I was shocked how quick it was and that it would never freeze. I built and built my iTunes and it was wonderful. Nothing slowed the two of us down. My technological dreams had come true. Until this summer, things quickly fell downhill. Microsoft word expired, it froze every few seconds and it was almost useless. Then out of no where it said "disk full" in other words- can't do nothing. I felt like everything that I had saved up to buy was beginning to fail me. I had forgotten how much I loved that laptop and how much work I put into the purchase of it. So, the computer had a full memory but I had memory loss. How often do we forget the things that we love? More often than not, I believe.
I had to spend several hours in the Apple store Friday night trying to figure out the problem. I stuffed the computer with too much junk. Now what? After sorting through all the files, I could move forward. All of this would have been impossible if I hadn't have called for the Apple representative for help. I probably would have thrown the whole thing away. But I was able to salvage it. We spent time figuring out that I needed an external hard drive and all that stuff... Thank god we were able to salvage my very expensive laptop.
My point is this: memory loss is never good. Always remember what you've loved. Never forget. If you have to ask for help, it's okay. And remember- don't overload yourself with junk. ;)

Discovering my dreams,
Amk

10.01.2011

Our rescue.

The morning started out great. My dad and I continued our weekly tradition of buying bagels. It was beautiful. He's really cool. My favorite person (probably in the whole world), my bestest friend and cousin Rachel came down to see me this morning. So, after the bagel eating festival (that follows the shopping of course) I showered and prepared to go to our local GoodWill. Initially some people may say "no" but believe it or not, it's a really cool place. In my mind I thought I was going to walk in with a quarter and walk out with a wardrobe... Not the case! We walked around the rather large consignment shop for probably an hour until we found the Jacket. This jacket was everything I've wanted in a jacket! It's fitted. It's stripped. It's got padded shoulders. It's amazing. The price, you ask? 5$. I was flabbergasted. Who knew I would walk away with something so fab? I can't lie, Rachel actually pulled it off the shelf but it was a victory by far. If only I had packed my black skinny jeans I would wear that jacket tomorrow. Next time...

Thought for today: pinch pennies.

Discovering my dreams,
Amk

9.30.2011

My surprise.

This morning was quite the busy one. My dad drove up from coconut creek to Lakeland to get me. My computer completely broke last week (c'mon apple) so I had to come back to get everything situated with that. Anyway, while I was in class my dad was driving. Earlier on in the week he told me that we would be surprising my mother and sister with my arrival because they didn't think that I would be back until October. After having a wonderful lunch with Dad, we departed. Fortunately, traffic was non-existent. We made the 4 hour drive in 3.5 hours!! Upon arrival, we tried to decide how we would surprise my mom and sister (who still had no idea I was coming.) after scrapping for tricky ideas, I decided to wait by the bus stop right outside my subdivision and approach the family car like a hitch hiker. It worked. My mom was completely surprised. It was a really cool experience actually. Reunited once again. Following, was a family dinner followed by a trip to the Apple store to have my MacBook fixed. (thank you Jesus) macmac will be fixed by tomorrow!
I think that my main point is this: it's good to be home.

Discovering my Dreams,
Amk

9.29.2011

The Beginning

Tonight marks the beginning of a new adventure. Who knew I would ever start a blog? Im really excited. Im going to document the things that i believe will be instrumental in the pursuit of my dreams. Will people want to follow? I dont know... Only time will tell, i suppose.

I have just recently completed my first month of college. So far, so good. It is different than i thought it would be, but i am having a blast. The most common question I have gotten thus far is, "What's your major?" The only answer that i have is, "I am still deciding." But upon reflection, i think that my answer should be, "I am still discovering." My eyes have been opened since I've been in school... (that is absolutely for sure!) I've met tons of unique people and at times I believe that they are teaching me more than the professors. In any event, my search for the right major is still ongoing. The wait is on!

Lets discover together, dreams that is!